i wish to tel him im nt right .im nt okay.........he.use to be the one who i scream n release to ......all dis while.guess it became my habit for a whole year........ and dis time........ i wana tel u the same....... im nt right....... i wish i cn wake up up........i wish......u r here nagging me to do assignment.i wish.u r here ask me don lau gei......and yet..u allow me to do so on u.......u said.is alrite is alrite........u alwiz ..follow wat i want to.....u alwiz.......teach me wat to do..u alwiz.........be the one stop my tears.........dis time, u r nt here anymore.......u r nt here to tel me jokes.......u r nt here..finding pic to make me smile again........whenever im down.i jz noe to find u out.....to listen ur voice......... and all dat calm me down.........i wana tel u..u r the only one i rely on....jerome ask me hw cn u be so caring.......making me recipe.......drawing pic for me.......... and dear..is sweet.......is sweeter than anything i cn own.......listening to voice clip i left again n again.........telling me hw much i miss u....... u said''i love u'' is a hard one to say it out.........and dats the most precious time everynite listening dat frm u......... i miss ur smile.ur laugh....... the way we argue on call........ 4 months.. a full 4 momths ,i feel u....rmb hw u giggle on call.ask me whether willing to be ur mrs tortoise....... the voice..the way u talk..i rmb so well......... ur''er er er''........ur smile ....... everything from u.......is a stamp on my mind.my heart.......... u nvr noe hw loving u r.......... and u r just soo loving....i feel alot from u..... rmb hw ely cal me n record u guys voice..ya.. a sweet sis u gt..... i rmb the first time i heard u crying over the call......... i rmb the first time u say.......hw bendan u r...and hw suffer u all ..u vomitting durin call..... dear....... i jz wana tel u.... u r the only one i love..thanks for the babe name .....im glad u stil rmb me until the last........ i know.i really know u try ur best..im proud of u...u did ur best......... although u r leaving to somewher..untouchable....... which we soo scare to face......which de distance we nvr gt the chance to be close...... time nt allow us to feel the scare anymore........it ask us to face..i duno wat so call pass away.for me.u r stil here..all da while.i cn hear u.......... i dont dare to cry more..i know u mz be scolding .......instead.i don wan u heartpain for my pain.........u suffer alot before dis........i wish now..u feel better ........ frm a strong u.i saw a really weak u......... i know ur pain was unbearable....im sorry.i cnt help out.beside accompany u.......

u nvr ask for more frm me........ u jst nvr do dat......... u will nie ask me hw am i..... my meal.my health.......my mood ..without ur nag...... i feel soo empty..u said.u felt empty once bcuz of me........ i wish to tel u..i cn und..the feeling now.ya.is jz soo empty.is lik a hole in the heart........ a hole.dat u hv no way to heal it....or to fill it up again..... u r near......u r far......... dats de feeling all dis while.u r far..bt u r the closest one to my heart...... u know me more than anyone does..........u rmb stg on me.dat even me myself wil forget......u rmb the days we spent together...u rmb every single words by me.......... u cn repeeat n rmb so well........ dear.i feel guilty..im nt as good as u.........and sooo sorry.i gt no chance to do better now.........

if i gt the chance......i wish to tel u i love u every single second

if i gt the chance...i wish to stop ur time.and wan u confess again n again

dear..... rmb 23 august.wher we repeating the day u confess to me........ it recal hw important u r to me...... hw u ask me to think.........and hw dumb i am who keep encouraging.....

i wish............is nie left v wish now......becus.......i cnt .

i just cnt hear ur voice anymore

i just cnt msn n crazy v u anymore

wat i left.is just memories..which seem soo little for others.yet.meant alot for me..........

 

i love u

parents are hard to understand ALL the time.....................
especially mine...........]
am i small???then y u all make me work in so mny things dats my fren didnt do??
am i big??? den y u always control n disagree v my things without finis listening to it..???

im tired v them.......................
ntg bt jz hope stg diff dis year ...............
y cnt they jz allow dat??


nvr put hope on that...........
jz hoping for MIRACLE............